Okay

Just had to let you all know that i am still ticking! Somebody had asked me in a message today if I was okay....Kind of funny to me, no I am not okay, but God is making me okay. Funny how when one obstacle in your life is so prominent and then another hits you smack in the face.....But it pulled my focus off of me and helped me to focus more on someone else for that matter. Putting much of my time and energy into the life of one person that I dearly love over the last week, helped me to see this life is not my own. It is God's. It is how I choose to live this life that will matter. It showed me that the most important thing to hang onto is love. No matter how much you want to close the door, shut that person out, give up, or just crawl into bed and not get out. Love will pull you through. That love comes from God. He loves us so much and He longs for us to realize that and receive it. Why are we so blinded, why do we question Him? He has us here on this earth for a reason. We may not understand why we are here. We may not understand what purpose our lives are serving right now, but what we fail to realize is regardless of the season we are in, the state we are in, He has a reason. We may not find out until the day we are with Him, but we have to trust in Him. God is bigger than my circumstances, God is bigger than all of this mess I have created, God is faithful......It is well with my soul, I lift my hands to a greater God that we serve, It is well with my soul, I sing this as strong as I can, It is well with my soul, I smile through the tears because I know, It is well with my soul, He floods my heart with such peace, although it is breaking. He alone can mend it, He alone can mend my broken heart, because He knows what I need, He has what I need, I just need to reach out to Him, through the tears, through the pain, through the anxiety, through the sadness......It is well with my soul.................

"So be truly glad! There is wonderful joy ahead, even though it is necessary for you to endure many trials for a while. These trials are only to test your faith, to show that it is strong and pure. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold...and your faith is far more precious to God than mere gold. So if your faith remains strong after being tried by fiery trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world." 1 Peter 6-7